So I am home from school now. I still feel like I have to leave any day, but I don't. I have the whole summer. What scares me is that I feel like I am just as capable of being a lazy bum in Kansas City as I am in Chicago. I spent a year making excuses about how much it sucked to be away from my friends and family and Melissa, but I think all that was just me being lazy. I need to get on the ball and just start doing what I know I should be doing. I don't regret going away to school, I regret using it as an excuse to live a sucky life.